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On a mission: Getting to the root

“The real question is, ‘What is worth living for?’” asks John Mahshie, founder of Veterans Healing Farm. “What I realized was that the only thing that lasts, the only thing that means anything is what we do for others, because that lives on.”

With dirt-encrusted Carhartt’s loosely rolled around his calves and a faded Early Girl Eatery T-shirt, John Mahshie cuts a wiry figure as he walks barefoot toward a half-acre of neatly sculpted garden beds. Each bed is 50 feet long and meticulously mulched with wood chips and crushed dead leaves — and not a weed in sight.

“The mycelium grow just beneath the wood chips and form a barrier that keeps the weeds down while the decomposing chips rob them of nitrogen,” Mahshie says as he picks up a handful of the mulch, crumbling it in his fist. The nascent, white, rootlike structure of mycelia is revealed, forming beneath the surface. “This is all designed to require no weeding for the entire summer,” he adds, proudly. “Cause … who likes weeding?”

On this mid-April day, the beds are sprouting a plethora of vegetables and medicinal herbs. “[The] aesthetic is equally important,” Mahshie says. “Coming out here and experiencing beauty is so valuable, so we bring in tons of flowers like anise hyssop, valerian and sage. They cross-pollinate and attract beneficial insects that eat pests.”

Mahshie’s 10-acre plot in Hendersonville is crowded with features beyond these beds. The space offers Community Supported Agriculture shares, hops production, lessons on permaculture, models of alternative energy and, in the near future, sustainable-living education retreats and a 1-acre donation garden that will yield fresh organic produce for local food pantries.

But beyond all this, the land serves a mission to build community. This place that Mahshie founded and cares for is Veterans Healing Farm, a place for returning veterans and civilians to meet one another, learn from one another, grow food and come together.

“Just as it’s important to cultivate diversity in our crops, we want our participants to be diverse and to cross-pollinate,” says Mahshie, himself an Air Force veteran. He explains that if veterans are going to holistically transition into civilian life, then they need to actively immerse themselves in the wider community.

Last year, the farm was awarded a $30,000 grant from the Entrepreneurial Bootcamp for Veterans in South Carolina, providing the resources to attain nonprofit status and make 2015 a milestone year for production and infrastructure.

Veteranshealingfarmweb02-1100x733Mahshie is exulted as he moves around the property, speaking quickly and pointing to the farm’s different features, both current and planned: from the mulch to the compost that’s made from donated yard waste, juice pulp and coffee grounds to the towering trellises of Cascade Hops; to the hugelkultur raised beds bursting with strawberries. And then there’s the shipping container bunkhouses, equipped with greywater systems and soon-to-come living roofs and radiant heating systems that harness the heat generated by the compost piles.

It’s all an elaborate opus, one that Mahshie believes will eventually require very little oversight — making for a self-sustaining and self-funding farm. Though the retreats and the donation garden are still in the works, the farm’s pilot program, the CSA, is already bringing together 28 local families, about half veteran and half civilian.

“Humans need each other,” Mahshie says. “Society as a whole leaves us more isolated than we have ever been. … [And] isolation is one of the biggest issues with veterans specifically.”

Veterans Healing Farm
Shipping in: The shipping container bunks at Veterans Healing Farm will feature greywater systems, living roofs and a radiant heating system that uses water warmed by the gases generated by compost piles, which regularly reach 160 degrees. Photo by George Etheredge
Stripped down and built back up
Much of the philosophy that guides Veterans Healing Farm has been shaped by Mahshie’s own experience as a veteran. Mahshie joined the Air Force after graduating from high school in Hendersonville in the fall of 2000 and took his first post in California in mid-2001. Shortly thereafter came the Sept. 11 attacks on the World Trade Center.

“I was real scared,” Mahshie recalls. “I’m an 18-year-old not knowing what’s going on. Plus my father is Lebanese, and my grandfather Palestinian, and the ticker on the 9/11 news reports reads, ‘Israel suspects Palestinians are responsible’ as the second tower is falling.”

In the weeks following the attacks, Mahshie says the military environment transformed drastically. “There was a lot of animosity toward Arabs,” he says, “I remember my chief master sergeant saying ‘We need to turn that whole damn place into a glass factory.’ … Though in general there isn’t a lot of racism tolerated in the military, there is an exception for ‘sand niggers’ and ‘towel heads.’”

Though the aggression wasn’t targeted at Mahshie personally, being so far away from family and friends in the increasingly xenophobic milieu was pushing him into depression. The final straw came when he received news that his father had been killed in a motorcycle accident on the Blue Ridge Parkway, just 19 days after the towers fell in New York. Mahshie thought he could work through his depression on his own, but his condition soon spiraled.

The experience Mahshie describes, though personal, is not uncommon. A 2011 study of post-9/11 veterans from the PEW Research Center found 52 percent of combat veterans and 30 percent of noncombat veterans reported having emotionally traumatic experiences while in the military. Regardless of whether they had been formally diagnosed, 37 percent of the veterans surveyed believed they suffered from post-traumatic stress as a result.

For six months, Mahshie tried to escape his depression through sleep, but his conditioned worsened. When offered an opportunity to go on a Christian mission to Mexico coordinated with the military’s chapel, Mahshie signed up. “What I discovered [in Mexico] really transformed my way of thinking,” he says. “I was surrounded by people who were in really tight financial situations, and yet exuded nothing but joy. It changed my life.”

Over the next two years before being discharged in 2004, Mahshie went on seven of these missions, where being immersed in the vibrant synergy of self-sufficiency and strong community helped him realize how vital staying engaged with others is to physical, mental and emotional health.
But even after his discharge, Mahshie says he couldn’t shake the emotional toll of his father’s death and war-time military service. As a soldier, the military “strips you down and builds you back up,” Mahshie says, noting that the process is both desensitizing and isolating. “There is so much KILL! KILL! KILL!” he says, explaining that “pulling the trigger” does not come naturally.

Mahshie vehemently opposes labels, especially when it comes to mental health. “To some degree or another” every person is dealing with mental health issues, he says. “There is no normal.”

Still, Mahshie admits that after leaving the service he eventually sought help privately and was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder. “I slept out on the couch for my second child’s last trimester because I wake up swinging and I almost punched my wife in the belly,” Mahshie recalls. “I wake up with night terrors. … I’ve got about 10 ways that I’ve thought about killing myself, and I hate that my mind works that way.”

Veteranshealingfarmweb03-720x480The military does offer mental health services through the Department of Veterans Affairs; however, Mahshie says he wouldn’t tell the VA about his darkest thoughts — an experience that is, again, not uncommon. While a January 2014 report from the VA only cites 10-18 percent of Operation Enduring Freedom and Operation Iraqi Freedom veterans as “likely to have PTSD after they return,” it adds the caveat that only 46 percent of eligible 2002-09 troops made use of VA services. Of those vets who did come into the VA, nearly half, 48 percent, were diagnosed with a mental health problem.

Mahshie says the VA’s approach to healing is fundamentally misaligned and plays into society’s stigmatization of mental health problems. The approach is to treat the symptoms, leaving the underlying problem unresolved.

“Many of the depression symptoms are a result of isolation,” Mahshie asserts. “We just keep loading on prescriptions as new symptoms pop up until eventually a guy is on 10 medications and wants to kill himself.” The delirium and disassociation that medications can create often exacerbates the common tendency in transition veterans to try to get through their depression alone, Mahshie adds.

 

Veterans Healing Farm continued…
“People need each other,” says Mahshie. Veterans Healing Farm currently brings together 28 families to grow food and connect to each other. Photo by George Etheredge
Three cheers for the red, white and blue
The sun hangs over the horizon, casting a warm light on six 300-foot raised beds covered in red, white and blue landscape plastic that will soon serve as Veterans Healing Farm’s donation garden. Mahshie and about a dozen other veterans and their families are on their hands and knees working to embed the plastic’s edges into the dirt before night falls.

“When you get out [of the military] and have just been inundated with death, to have the opportunity to cultivate life, to nurture it, to take a seed and put it in the ground, tend to it and then have it bear fruit — that heals your soul, your mind and your body,” Mahshie reflects. “With your feet touching the earth— the whole system creates this environment that is more therapeutic than any other.”

As he shovels handfuls of dirt onto the edges of blue plastic, Ryan Fogerty, an Air Force veteran, notes, “Community is the top — it’s the best part of this.”

Glancing at Mahshie, Fogerty adds, “I also feel like I can come out here and support him too. He’s the one that started this, but he needs this more than anyone else does, you know? Because he’s looking for a mission, but he needs people to support him in it.”

If Mahshie is on a mission, part of his goal is to see his vision spread. He says he hopes Veterans Healing Farm will become a model that can be replicated elsewhere throughout the country.

Walking past the two off-grid upfitted shipping containers on the grassy lawn, Mahshie shares his plans to create a vertical flower garden on the exterior wall of one, using red, white and blue flowers to form the image of a huge, living American flag. “These shipping containers were once filled with useful items, packed full of purpose and sent across the seas only to sit empty on some loading dock when their mission had expired,” he says. He smiles and adds, “They’re just like vets, and that’s why I love repurposing them for this project. Look at them now — their mission isn’t over.”

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